Living Arrows – 15/52

You are still so small.  People are always asking me how the little ones are and my standard response is ‘Enormous!’ but really, you are still so small.  I read stories about all of the harm that can befall children and my breath catches.  Injuries, illness.  Friends’ babies who went to sleep and just didn’t wake up.  Friends who are desperate to see their babies reach adulthood, who worry about the impact that the death of a parent will have on their developing minds.

Children who step outside of their homes and are never heard of again.

Trusted friends with nefarious motives.

One rogue cell that multiplies.

An accident.  Just an accident.  It could have happened to anyone.

A million and one ‘if onlies’ waiting to happen.

Blink and everything is different, forever.

You are still so small.  And the world is so big.  And every time I pick up a newspaper some other mother is grieving.  It could happen to anyone.  Today.  Tomorrow.  Next year. 

You are playing in the water and you are still so small.  Three times your birth weights but no bigger than a well-fed cat.  Small enough to share a bucket of water with your brother.  Small enough that we need to hold on to you lest you slip under.  Small enough to swing up in our arms and hold close to us to dry.

I want to watch you grow up, but not too fast. 

And I don’t want to know how your stories end.

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9 Comments

  1. April 13, 2015 / 9:18 pm

    Oh my goodness. This is so perfect xx

  2. April 13, 2015 / 9:51 pm

    Gorgeous photo. Still so small as you say – they don’t seem so looking at other photos.

    #livingarrows

  3. April 13, 2015 / 10:22 pm

    That photo is so beautiful and one they will look on as adults and wonder themselves how they were ever so small. I don’t think any parent ever wants to know how their children’s stories end and it is always so so sad when a parent outlives a child x

  4. April 14, 2015 / 12:58 pm

    They look so small in that bath tub and so cute!

    I have this same worry esp when I was pregnant with my son. So many bad and sad stories in the news gave me sleepless nights.

    #LivingArrows

  5. April 14, 2015 / 8:59 pm

    Such beautiful words and photos! Thank you for sharing #livingarrows

  6. April 14, 2015 / 10:12 pm

    What a truly beautiful photograph. And your words brought tears to my eyes. There are days when I am overcome with worrying about what the future holds for my daughter. I want to wrap her up and keep her safe from all of the things that might possibly hurt her.

  7. April 15, 2015 / 10:29 am

    What a gorgeous photo!!! it is a scary world out there and It is hard to not worry. But it is our job I guess. darn mother nature! haha

  8. April 17, 2015 / 8:35 pm

    Gorgeous photo, they do look tiny it there but they are growing quickly! It’s so hard to shut out the fear as a parent, I worry about things now I never thought I would and cry over other people’s tragedies as it is too easy to imagine the devastation xx

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