Living Arrows – 17/52

 

I never used to be like this.

I was never the sort of person to fall asleep by the back door in the middle of the day.  And I’ve never been the sort of person to wear jeans – they’re too middle-ground for me, I’d rather wear a beautiful dress else a dressing gown.  Jeans and a jumper make me feel so… well, how I look, I suppose.  I was never the sort of person to fling those on after a party.

Actually, I was never the sort of person to go to a party at noon, either.  Not that sort of party, anyway.  Not one with cheesy disco dancing and not a jot of alcohol.The artificial snow was pretty cool though.

You turn six months old tomorrow.

You came to us raw and new and helpless and you made me a little like that too.  You turned me into the sort of person who can sob with complete abandon in a busy room, the sort of person who can fight with teeth and nails.  Some days I don’t recognise myself.

And I suppose I just wanted to recognise that somewhere, that tomorrow doesn’t just mark six months of you in the world but it also marks six months of me as mother to outside-of-the-womb babies.  Six months of me as a mother.

You can have the festivities but I’ll be celebrating me too.

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6 Comments

  1. April 29, 2015 / 8:10 pm

    beautifully put! I think half the reason why we’ve always really celebrated the babies’ first birthdays was that recognition of a year of parenting and the changes it wrought on us and the family as a whole. Happy six month birthday to all of you 🙂

  2. April 29, 2015 / 8:34 pm

    Gosh this is beautiful. Really beautiful xx

  3. April 29, 2015 / 10:17 pm

    Half a year! What a great milestone. Babies definitely change us – mostly for the better I think. I love your jeans and jumper look, you look snug, relaxed, at home x

  4. May 1, 2015 / 4:33 pm

    If the moment calls for jeans and a nap by the back door, just make sure you do it well and that is what you seem to be doing 😉

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