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  • The Wilde Girls’ Second Birthday

    The night before you turn two years old, your mama and I stay up late to bake you a cake.  It is the cake that we always make, the cake that I think that you will associate with your childhoods one day: a vegan dark chocolate chip cake, made with almond extract and smothered in sprinkles.  I could make this cake in my sleep and I almost do, blearily, adding in a little of this and then a little of that, mostly by taste.  I am so tired that night; a busy week in the office, followed by an active day with the two of you and your brothers, has almost broken me.  I feel guilty, as though I have not made the most of you; I have this urge to wake you from your rest and bring you into bed with us, to sleep with us how you slept…

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    Goodbye Second Trimester

    You blink and it passes, swallowed up in fluttering first kicks and then the tumbling, cats-in-a-bag subsequent sensations, in restless legs and insomnia and the countdown first to viability and then to the next milestone and the constant, nagging suspicion that you could not possibly be so fortunate.  You sleep less, with four children; you justify the exhaustion by reminding yourself that you are not carrying twins this time, you are not nearly so anaemic this time.  You nest; your Pinterest is full of cushions and art.  It distracts you from thoughts of what you should be doing, preparation you should be making.  You feel so underprepared, which is silly – this baby was planned, you have had babies before, how much preparation can you possibly need?  You are not a frightened seventeen-year-old hiding her bump beneath a school skirt.  But it strikes you sometimes that those frightened seventeen-year-olds may…

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    Dressing my Children with Blaou

    Ever since my sons were very small, I have been dreading the day that they decide to take charge of their own style and begin to reject my choices. Little did I realise that although the boys are almost two years older than their small sisters, in fact it is the little girls who have the stronger opinions about what they will and will not wear. In fact, it is lovely to present the boys with new items of clothing – they gasp with joy and are ecstatic to show off whatever they have been given, to lovingly detail the colours and patterns and to receive our approval. And little Embla is not difficult to dress at all. Olympia, on the other hand.. well, the child has very decided opinions and they vary from day to day. She seems to gravitate toward fleecy onesies, even in the height of summer,…

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    Embla and Olympia Turn Two

    Oh, my little girls. It seems like only the other day that you were perfect strangers and we marvelled at you as you thrashed beneath my skin, and we wondered who you would be when you were born. But my dreams those days only stretched so far; I couldn’t imagine you as anything more than babies, couldn’t envision the little girls that would grip my heart and squeeze it so tightly that sometimes, in the office, the thought of you leaves me breathless. It doesn’t seem two years ago that we daydreamed of you, and yet I feel as though I have known you all my life. On the cusp of your second birthday I wanted to take some time to write to you, to celebrate the children that you have become. You are such beautiful beings. I don’t mean physically – though you are – but your enormous hearts,…

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    Summer Family Bucket List

    Having just returned from five days at Camber Sands, it feels as though much of the summer has already been and gone! It feels like such a joy and a treat to know that it is only mid-July and the rest of this month is stretching out ahead, followed by a blissful August and even September isn’t exactly cold, is it? And then when the weather starts to turn and the leaves fade to burnished rusts and golds, we will welcome our baby – so I can’t even bring myself to dread the end of this glorious warm stretch all that much! I wanted to take some time to write a bucket list for this summer, in part because everyone else has been doing them but also to set some measurable goals for this summer. Eat doughnuts at the seaside Build a sandcastle Collect seashells Swim – properly swim –…

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